Thursday, March 10, 2011

Happy until...



Today is my birthday... ^^
Just a blink, i'm 20 now...The time passes really fast...
I feel like i just passed 18 , why so fast 20 one...>.<'
However, i'm really 20 now, need to accept the fact...

This morning, in the sharp of 12, my 2nd family and my junior they gave me a surprise...
I'm in the room surfing internet, suddenly the light off, and all of them came into the room and sang "Happy Birthday" song to me...And, Connie carried a plate of yee mee with an egg on it....I was so happy until i kept on laughing..My frame of mind could't use words to describe...They did a card for me...I will treasure it...Thank you my second family and my junior..^^

In school, my friends they wished me also..I felt sweet and also felt sorry to them as i didnt invite them together go watching movie...=.= One of my friends, Brandon, he bought me a cake...I felt happy...^^

I told them that let's go watching movie after exam...And, i just realized that i havent been gone out with them before... I felt so paiseh....><

I should treasure this friendship or else in the future i will regret that i have no any memories with them...



  • This also my first time celebrate my birthday out of my hometown...^^

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

放手


最近,有些事在渐渐地改变了。我不知道哪里来的勇气和胆量,我跟他提出了分手,是坚决的分。我第一次这样子的说出我的不满,想法。后来,他宁愿接受一切我所说的,所想要的,也不想要分,但是迟了,‘当你想要接受这一切时,我已经想放手了,因为我累了’,这是我对他说的话。我没想要我竟会对他这么说,我真的累了吗?
我和他,就变得少联络,是少之又少哦,一天没有一通电话,没有超过三封的信息。这是不是意味着他接受了分手,但他没说出口。我不知道他现在怎么想,但是,我知道他在试着离开我的世界。
他的心在痛,在流泪,或许。
我的心呢?不痛吗?
怎么没感觉的?不是铁做的心吧,这么铁石心肠?
还是....我自己没察觉到,要等到他真的离开了才会痛?
我不知道自己会不会后悔,因为我不知道自己到底还爱他吗。我扪心自问,也没头绪。
这几天要准备考试了,我觉得累,而我想到想依靠的人是他,这又是什么意思呢?
心里还有他?或许是。
但是,我真的累了,我想休息了,即使心里或许还有他。
或许他有很多让我很不满的要求,或许他吵架时常骂些不好听的话,但是我不曾有过这种强烈的想法。
我想并不是完全因为他的关系吧,是我自己的问题,只是把他当成其中的一个理由,让自己想放手。
在将来或许我会后悔,但是现在,我真的想放手休息了。
对不起,祥........